i'm leaving in under 12 hours.  i'll be on a train going far away from here.
i don't know why i need this so badly, but i really feel like i do.  i need to get out of the city.  i have so much to think about, mostly my relationship with Bryce.  i need to figure out what i need and what i want from life.  i want to take some pictures, make some drawings, write some letters, maybe make some new friends.  i'm staying with my friends DJ and Laura who make the most delicious vegan and vegetarian food i've ever had.  i'm also meeting up with Sarah, my wife and Charlotte, too.  i spent the whole day packing and cleaning and jittering around.
but good jittering, though.  excitement.  i've had such a good summer so far, i never want it to end.

i really don't know what to write here.
i'm going to miss my friends.  i probably won't be able to update this place much.  please, if you're ever bored, send me an e-mail at leba@jokuty.com .  i love getting e-mails and i'll be able to check it regularly.
i'll be back on the 24th.  a day before Bryce gets home.  i really hope that he's changed since i've last seen him.  i really hope so.  i've been having a lot of doubts about our relationship lately.  as much as i hope that he will have changed when he gets back, i really doubt that he will.  oh well.  the circular dialogue in my head is amazing.

i'll come back with a plethora of pictures and stories.

 

you are beautiful.